Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Settling in

So last night I went to Girl's Night Out at the church. And I wasn't sure what to expect, but what I found was definitely not what I envisioned. It was basically set up to be a sit-in-your-seat-and-listen event. I had hoped that there would be interaction and fun among the women. Plus, it was a sponsored event, so there were a lot of plugs for businesses and organizations. That really bugged me! I felt confused as to what the purpose of the event was - was it to promote businesses or was it for women to learn? The speaker was entertaining, but I didn't feel that her message changed anything inside me. I think that I put up my defenses very early in the evening due to the set-up and atmosphere. It was fake feeling. I miss Hillside.

On the plus side (after a lot of complaining!), I met a few new people and they were friendly. I think it will take some time to feel a connection with people.

I am starting to feel a bit disconnected and a little lonely. I am enjoying having quiet time to do whatever I want, but I miss hanging out with people I know. It is also good to be with Nader again after 2 months of being apart. I guess it will all take some time to become adjusted to the new life. I am trying to stay positive and upbeat.

Maybe I will feel better after setting more stuff up. It's still a big mess in here. I feel a little lost and don't know where to start. I start something and then think of another thing and another....soon I can't remember what I was doing in the first place! (Oh wait, that's nothing new!!)

Love Nicole

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